A Blog Introducing Me

Sometimes you are at your 9-7 job thinking, there has to be more to life than what I am doing right now because it cannot just be this every single day for the rest of eternity! Which is basically why I decided to buy a website domain and just run with it for fun at 10:48AM on a Tuesday morning. If your like me and are chronically online, you right now have found yourself at an area in your life you have never been in. The constant feel and need for wanting something new, something different, something better than what your reality is right now. Currently, my TikTok feed is filled with people enjoying European summers or residing in chic 700 sqft studios in Manhattan (hats off to those people, I need a closet), and it makes me question, is this all there is? Don't get me wrong, I love where I live. I have fantastic, amazing friends, a wonderful family, and of course, a cat I would die for, but I crave a sense of adventure and a fresh start. Definitely can't help listening to Mel Robbins every day with the "Move somewhere in your 20s" speech I am sure we have all heard a thousand times across social media. Love her though for sure! Anyways, I have come to the conclusion over the past year (honestly wanted to move for the past 3 years) that I think it may be time to take my talents elsewhere, and we are talking across the United States of America. Who knows, we will see. That's what I have this for - to document all of my feelings and journeys.

I was a communications major in college (yes, I like to party), so truly it can't be that hard running a blog. Overall, I am not very emotional (I like to act like I am not), but I feel like a journal/blog would be very therapeutic for me and my mental health. Now when I say that I do have chronically, horrific anxiety that is debilitating, but you know we get through that. You can only take your anxiety medication for so long before giving therapy and speaking your feelings a try. (Kidding, kind of). So how about we start giving it a try.

Now lets get to the juicy, the fun stuff, the relationships. In the love department, I mean, good god, it is tough out here. I remember when I was in college, I was horrified to leave college without being in a serious relationship or have the "ring by spring," which is literally insane to think about because I am currently 26 and could not even fathom being married or pregnant, my god. When I was younger, Plan A was to be married and have 3 kids by the age of 24. Too bad for my 14-year-old self who wanted a family, but my 10-year-old self would think I am a superstar for going out every weekend, dancing my ass off and meeting new people and having new experiences. The thing about dating in your 20s is it might be tougher than training for that marathon you feel pressured to do. I once saw a girl on TikTok say in your 20s you're either married or training for a marathon, and I loved that. Anyways, the moral of the story is I hate it. I would rather die than do that whole embarrassing meet-up with that guy you hope looks like his profile on Hinge or Raya (which most times he won't). Then the whole date is just like an interview, which is so exhausting. Personally, I can't. I want to meet someone organically, and my mom keeps telling me to get involved in other stuff that is not just going out to eat, drink, and hope you run into Mr.Right at 1AM on a Saturday night (which lets get real) . Unfortunately, I don't have enough hours in the day to join a kickball team with hot men. Sorry, mother. Anyways, we will put a pin in the dating; it's definitely juicy and all things exciting and some of the biggest letdowns of your twenties. My favorite is when someone from your past gets married to the girl right after you - always feels good. Even though the heartbreak in your twenties is very sudden, and hurts more than your high school relationship, the lessons you learn from each relationship or situationship benefit you in so many ways. I always look at who I was talking to back when I was 21 and the difference between who I was at that age and now is night and day. The lessons I have taken from each relationship have helped me grow into the person I am today.

As I have gotten deeper into my twenties, I am happy that I am single and have the—I don't want to say freedom—but let's face it, there's that sense of freedom when you are single that is hard to give up. I like the fact that right now I can jump on a plane and go to Europe and not tell anyone, or if I want to eat in my bed (which I don't, but if I wanted to, I could), or Blast Tiktok Full volume and learn that dance without being looked at funny.. I dont know just things I think about. I have always been an independent person that takes great pride in being able to take care of myself and not have to ask for help too often. Throwing another person in the mix right now sounds horrific. Like grocery shopping for two, no thanks. I also like being on this single journey because I am learning more about myself every day than I ever have. Whether it is meeting new men and figuring out what you like or don't like, or also just going through past traumas and actually healing, which is nice and, I guess probably good for the mental health. Now saying all that, lets be real ofcourse I would not mind a boyfriend. (Blogging is good for the soul seems like I am finally coming around). For now though I am finally at a place where I have begun to get to know myself on a level I never have before. Who knows what this year will bring, or the next few in my 20s, but if it is anything like the first 6, hell, it is definitely going to be something to write about. I hope this reaches some people, or honestly could just be my own personal diary I pay $43 a month for (which will be therapeutic), but if it does, I am glad you're here and can't wait to share more.